..pieceS oF mY brokeN hearT..

Underneath the stars .
Alone, I wait .

hi there! and weLcome tO mY liFe.
Life, that's what makes up blogs, doesn't it?
i'm goning to skip all the bullshit and come to the point.
u're most weLcome tO share mY liFe, my experiences with me.
please just respect my point of view and judgement.
aferall, that's the least we can offer as human beings.
before i end, i would like to share this qoute with you all.

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"

enjoy... =p

SECRET ME.X

His name is AKM.
He first cried on 26NOV88.
He is studying at
Ngee Ann Polytechnic; Electrical Engineering.
He is outgoing, yet he observes.
He is cool, yet he thinks.
He is lazy, yet he analyses.
He is crude, yet he cares.
He is silent, yet he impacts.
Now, that's him.

MY FAV SONGS.X

MY SECRETS.X

what i want? it is something hard for me to say. i already have everything i ever wanted.

~~my own TV. my own DVD. my own LAPTOP. my own PHONE. my own MOBILE. my own iPOD. my own ROOM. my own BIKE. my own BANKER(dad).~~

what else can a 'simple' guy like me wish for?
maybe, a little more friends.

~~TELL ME YOUR SECRETS.~~X

MY ONLI FRIENDS.X

CK. FateeN. JoeY. SpenceR. KakaK. Li FanG. QuraishA. CahayA. FarhanA. Ming ShI. ShikiN. AqilaH. AmbeR. JackY. BryaN. JoeybflY. ShazwiN. AugustinE. FarhaN. FaraH. Xiao WeI. GabrieL. 6.1'02-CpS.

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July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 February 2009

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~~Sunday, September 28, 2008~~

11:28 PM

i think i'm on a cooking frenzy! hahaha! what did i cook today? hmm.. i not exactly sure what to call my 'creation'. lols. it's something like fried rice with sweetened prawn and spiced chicken. sounds weird? well, at least it tasted superb! :P dam! why didn't i just go for a "cooking diploma" if that's what its called. hahaha.
on the other hand, there's some improvement in my dad's condition. i heard he'll be going back to work tomorrow even though he still has a week's MC. yeah i know, but that's the bad thing about being an Senior Civil Engineer. The pay is dam good, but they sure make you work for it. and adding to my dad's stress, his design manager and project director is totally useless. know nothing about building and construction work in Singapore! i still don't understand why gave up an offer for a planning manager's post in a local company. at least he would have more time for himself and his family.
anyways, tomorrow is a very special day! it's my anniversary with my baby dear aka pink piglet! lols. i wanted to get her something nice this time, so i 'forced' myself to go shopping (something i dread)! can't tell you guys what i got her yet because it wouldn't be a surprise then would it? hehe~

fry the rice till it's just about golden; my secret.

~~Saturday, September 27, 2008~~

11:44 PM

yes, i do cook. and I'm pretty good at it! hahaha! oh well since my dad is going to home this week, recovering, i decided to cook him a treat. i don't cook very often but when i do, hahahaha! u better get your plate ready! :P but since i was fasting and was pretty tired, i decided to cook something simple yet tasty. so what was on today's menu? deep fried chili chicken and seasoned fried rice. :) to my surprise, it so happened that even my cousin came over to visit today. and he too was shocked that a person me enjoyed cooking. but yea, regardless their doubts, everyone enjoyed the treat! thank to me!! hurhur! nothing much happened today. to think of it, i miss going to school. haiz! the holidays are really getting to me. life just seems too stagnant! i wish my life would be a little more exciting. sigh!

1:15 AM

yesterday was really a beat! had totally no time! that is why i am updating at this hour. so busy with what? my dad got into an accident actually. sigh. my mom woke me up at about 8 telling me my dad had an accident. almost immediately my eyes open and i rushed to the phone to call up my dad! the next thing i knew, i was putting on the nearest clothes i could find, grabbed my wallet and ran out! adding to my dilemma, it was raining cats and dogs and the morning jams are no stranger to us. it took me an hour to reach the place, in a cab. imagine that? a car had knocked down my dad's bike on AYE just before the Alexander exit. when i reached the scene, this stupid Cisco officer approached me. the first thing that came out of my mouth was that who the hell hit my dad?! where that fellow?! then that mother-fucker started babbling in his stupid Indian accent that no one knocked my dad and the had skidded on his own. how would you have reacted if a moron said that about your dad. so i asked his to his face if he fucking saw the incident with his own eyes! and he shut his gap!! no wasting much time own those shit-heads as i was told that the traffic police would investigate the matter, i rushed to the hospital. what actually happened was that the mother fucker driver actually did an abrupt lane change hitting my dad's bike in the process. not only that! that son of a bitch even those a tyre over my dad's shoulder as his bike fell to the ground!! which in turn 'popped' my dad's shoulder socket!! *won't go into much details as I'm afraid i will smash my laptop on the floor due to the fire burning in my heart!!!!!*
i was there standing beside my dad from 9am to 1+pm as he lay on the bed. frankly, i had never felt so helpless in my life before! all i could do was to pray to everything to be right again. it also gave me time to reflect on how i have been rude to him and how much he actually meant to me. fortunate the doctor was able to pop his shoulder back into place but there's still a small fracture for which he has to attend a surgery. when my dad got released, he couldn't even wear his own shirt or shoes. as i knelt down to tie his shoe laces for him, my whole life flashed past my very own eyes. how i would be nothing if he hadn't raised me and how still i am dependent on him. the first words i spoke to his was "no more riding for you from now on". as if i were my dad's father. i felt a certain responsibility in me. a certain feeling that i was not a child anymore. and being the elder son, i am not doing as much for my parents as i really could.
so please people. it's a sincere request from my heart, give your parents the respect they truly deserve. don't even take them for granted as they won't be there by your side forever! the least you can do to pay back for all those years they have sacrificed for you is to give them a decent amount of respect!! please!!

"SGE 6273 E" <-- this is the licence plate of that fucker! my request to the blog community: please break his side mirror, wind screen, scratch his car or even burn it down if you happen to see this car. please!!! may god bless all of you!!

~~Saturday, September 20, 2008~~

2:47 AM

back from signing my 'death warrant'. i had been called by the academic affairs department earlier on to report to school yesterday regarding the modules i had failed. so yeah, i thought it would be rather simple, they would just ask me to repeat the modules. but no. life's never that simple. i really wish it was. back to what i was saying. i was told to sit in and wait for my course manager and the 1st year coordinator. and that when it all began. i was told to sign the acknowledgement form stating that i would be DISMISSED if i were to fail the same modules twice. yeap, that exactly what it came down to. and the immediate implication where that now, i can never complete my diploma in 3 yrs time. dam! adding to the stress, if i were to be dismissed from Ngee Ann, i would to report for National Service straight away! now is that fair?? haiz. guess that's the price of having "balls in Singapore". and girls thing we guys always have it easy huh? and by the time we guys come out to re-apply for a diploma course, most the girls would have stated with their first job or even a degree. sigh. as you all can see now, a simple module is a matter of life and death for us guys. dam! dam! dam! why does it have to be this way? oh well, there's "no point crying over spilled milk", i know. but how am i suppose to focus and concentrate thinking about all the possible consequences if i were to screw up one more time.

P/S: if you were even thinking of going to Ngee Ann Polytechnic, do reconsider.

~~Tuesday, September 16, 2008~~

6:43 AM

hi people.. yea I know, I've away for awhile now. oh well, it's just that i have been sleeping most of the time trying to 'hibernate' so that i don't go hungry from all the fasting. HAHAHA! I'm rather impressed with myself actually. It's the first time I have managed to fast for so many days straights. to be perfectly honest, i missed only 3 days. which i INTEND to pay back. :) i understand that fasting is a normal thing for you people, so why am i making such a big deal of it anyway? you must first take into consideration the background i am from. well, most of you learned to pray at a very tender age i presume? for me i only learned to pray when i was about 15 or 16 i think. i don't blame anyone? it is just something i had to overcome myself. i am the sort of person that will never do something i don't have faith or believe in. i can still remember those days in secondary school when this particular teacher i had, tried all his means to just get me to go for Friday Prayers but still failed. but eventually as i fought the devil in me, i started to change to be a better person. sadly speaking, i don't pray 5 times a day but it's something i really would like to achieve. oh well, enough talk about the fasting month, now to something a bit more serious...

i received my exam results via SMS yesterday on 15/09/2008 at about 9.23pm, and there it is..

Computer Programming = B+
Creative and Thinking Skills = D+
Electrical Technology = F
Engineering, a Creative Profession = B+
Engineering Mathematics = D+
Engineering Mechanics = F
Sports and Wellness = Px

remarks: GPA = 1.40, REPEAT failed modules.

to be honest, i am not really sure how to re-act to my results actually. should i be glad that i only have to repeat 2 modules for my second semester or should i cry over spilled milk, as to why did i not study harder. i really don't know. but i know one thing for sure, that i can't fail these two modules for a second time or I'm dismissed. dam...

~~Wednesday, September 10, 2008~~

5:58 AM

hey people.. i know i haven't been updating on my life so much lately. but what to do? it's just that I've been stuck at home, rotting all day and all night long. really wish i had 'something' to do. haiz.. oh well, i was so bored that i decided to surf the net when i came across these so called "tests". not having anything else on my hands i decided to take them and here are the results.. enjoy.. :P

this is for you baby.. :)

$$$ is something that DRIVES me.. :P

hahaha.. I'm smarter then i thought..

Which kid will belong to you??

Nathaniel
Nathaniel is a sweet normal kind, he loves to play outside but he is very soft spoken and sweet.You are Normal and somewhat shy too.You just like to hang out with friends and have fun.

How do you compare?
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my 'future' kid?? lols.. not bad at all..

what color is your inner energy?

your inner energy is silver
your a dreamer, you think up something and make it come true. you have a great sense of intuition and can see all possible outcomes before you take action.

How do you compare?
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Are you good in bed?

READY TO GET DOWN AND DIRTY!!!
Your one of the best in bed! You know what your partner wants and how they want it. You love to try new things and love being in control when in bed (or where ever you might be). They beg you for more and they wish you'ld never stop.

How do you compare?

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now this one, i liiiikkkeeeeee.. :D

~~Saturday, September 6, 2008~~

1:27 AM

3 words to sum up my life? Bored. Bored. Bored. life's been such a bore lately. Still around 1 more month for school to re-open. and I'm sitting at home, rotting 24/7. this really sucks big time! suddenly i wish my dad would let me go out to work. at least it would help kill some time. but that's not the worst yet. baby dear is also having school holidays, 1 week i think. which mean she can't come visit me. :( dam! so what am i suppose to do? i used to love sleeping but now I'm bored to an extent that even sleeping seems BORING! don't know why her crazy dad decided to take so many off days as well making the situation worse as she can't EVEN call me. sad, lonely, bored me. i was spending the last few days making a video but since its done now, i really got NOTHING better to do. only if i had a little more friends. then i would go out and have fun till the sun came down. sigh. hmm. what else that's going on in my life? oh well, maybe I'm going to quit smoking. yea, but still considering. why? let's just say EVEN smoking is adding to my boredom! yes, that's how bored i am. OK now, here's the video i made for you guys, enjoy.. and DON'T TRY IT AT HOME!! lols. the SPCA will get you! trust me.. hahahahaha!! :) cheers!

DEAD FROGGIE

~~Monday, September 1, 2008~~

10:31 PM

ello~ finally I'm back to blog. haha! well, i did come back on the 29th but i was simple too tired to blog. i was sleeping all day and all night long. don't worry, as promised, i took alot of pictures for you guys. :) stepping onto Tioman Island was like stepping onto PARADISE, seriously! we were treated like V.I.Ps around the clock. and the cigarettes and beer there was SOOOO cheap compared to even main-land Malaysia. they were selling 1 carton of Winstons at only RM42. and 1 bottle of Hoegaarden was only RM6. can you imagine that?? hahaha!! but it was the snorkeling experience that got to me the most. it was really an once in a life time opportunity for me. the beauty of the fishes and the coral can't be described in literal words. the water was blue as the sky and the fishes took after the rainbow! oh yea, the beautify of the island also inspires me to write a little piece of poem. there it is.. :) and the pics i took.. enjoy....

Heart of the sea

Slicing through the heart of a calm ocean;

With the foams so white, dissolve into the deep.

I sit still as the rain droplets pierce my skin;

With the low thunders, waking the background.

There is a sudden loneliness grasping my heart;

Empty is my dark soul, I question myself.

Silence in the air for appreciation of the sea;

Unspoken are terms, used to describe me.

Slicing though the heart of a stormy sea;

With no one to turn to, just you and me.