His name is AKM. He first cried on 26NOV88. He is studying at Ngee Ann Polytechnic; Electrical Engineering. He is outgoing, yet he observes. He is cool, yet he thinks. He is lazy, yet he analyses. He is crude, yet he cares. He is silent, yet he impacts. Now, that's him.
MY FAV SONGS.X
MY SECRETS.X
what i want? it is something hard for me to say. i already have everything i ever wanted.
my own TV. my own DVD. my own LAPTOP. my own PHONE. my own MOBILE. my own iPOD. my own ROOM. my own BIKE. my own BANKER(dad).
what else can a 'simple' guy like me wish for? maybe, a little more friends.
its already 12Mn now, and i have yet to pack up for my Tioman-trip. dam! have been delaying the packing up all day. haiz! guess that is the only bad thing about going on a holiday. thank god I'm a guy. just pack some t-shirts, shorts, boxers, toiletries and I'm done! hahaha. maybe the thought of this, is what's been hindering me from getting started with the packing. well, i think I'll start as soon as I'm done with this post. i still have to wake up 4.30am tomorrow morning. alright, TODAY morning. hahaha. ok, let me tell you guys a little about yesterday. man, i was really out of perfumes and deodorants. so i was forced to go shop for some. (note: i HATE shopping :P) usually, i get my parents to do my shopping for such stuff. but since its the holidays, i decided not to trouble them. that is when i came face to face with reality. there is SO much variety of frangrace in the market that it is SO hard to choose something that you like. i'm not really good at these stuff unlike someone, if she's reading this. hahaha! yes, its you piggie!! anyways, thought adidas was a good brand so decided buy something from that company. then AGAIN, so many different types. and i was totally lost. so being the typical me, i bought one of each kind. HAHAHAHA! kk, i better get started with my packing. if not, won't be able to get enough rest for the trip. chao! :) P/S: will take loads of pictures for you guys okie? ta-ta..
i can be a deodorant critic now.. hehe! :P
Sunday, August 24, 2008
1:10 AM
this few days of holiday have been unbearably boring! to an extent, that i can feel the suffocation of being stuck in my room. dam! i just can't wait for the Tioman-Trip, which is this coming Tuesday on the 26th. on the other hand i am going to miss baby dear. i can manage still. but wondering how she is going to spend these three day without, 'irritating', me. hehe! oh well, talking about this few days. i have been experiencing some weird mood swings lately. which has made me even more mood-less. simply feel like stoning my life away. anyways, here is a poem i wrote. hope you guys can feel it... cheers.. :-/
Death
If I were to be gone, shall you not visit me;
If I were to be mistaken, shall you not shed tears;
I shall cry and pain, if shall you.
If I were to be gone, shall you not remember me;
If I were to be mistaken, shall you not miss me;
I shall be lost and wonder, if shall you.
If I shall be gone, shall I be never back.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
8:09 AM
hi people. i am back. i know i have been blogging a lot these days. its just that i have plenty of free time on my hand due to school holidays. which is giving me time to surf the web and opening my eyes to the society we live in. usually i would just blog about myself and my life. but only now that i realize that there is a much more bigger problem at hand. it is the society we are all part of. it is OUR singapore. i am not trying to bad-mouth anyone in particular but just trying to put forward a message. a message of CARE! if we don't, no one really will. do you guys still remember the little presents we used to get during national say at primary school. those bags, pens and so on, stating "no one owes singapore a living" and "we must, on our own, defend singapore"?? i do. but looking at what is happening to our current society really pain me. there is a video i came across on youTube. it almost brought tears to my eyes. please take a look and comment on my tag board on how you feel. :(
i spent almost 2 hrs reading through all the post in this forum. why did i do it? how did i even find this forum at the first place? well, Singapore in gold medal finals is a big thing indeed! so i decided to watch the match. but, sad to say this but as i was watching it, i felt a certain discomfort in me. i almost was hoping that Singapore would loose rather then win the match. and every point china got, i felt better. shocking isn’t it? BUT please, let me explain. i am a ‘pure’ Singaporean, like many of you indicated. where as, my dad was an expat or foreign talent. he has been living in Singapore for the past 30yrs, i think. and me practically all my life. i grew up as a child here. played at the playground with the Malay, Chinese and Indian kids. ate the the coffee shop near my house. got into troubles at school and etc. i feel a belonging, a connection to this country. this is my country, my home. i feel safe here like no where else in the world, amongst my own people. that is why i can proudly hold up my head and say that i AM an Singaporean. BUT!! do you think these so-called foreign talents of Singapore say the same thing and feel the same way i feel about Singapore, MY homeland?? the answer is NO, my friends. the fact is that they will never feel the same way, and we have to face it. they did not grow up here. they did not grow up like we did. so HOW are we to feel proud of their achievements?? i myself am ashamed really to say that Singapore won silver medal in the Olympics. because we did not! the china players did. no matter how we put it into language, it would always mean ‘the CHINA and NOT the Chinese players won the medal’ for us. i hope you people see where i am going with this. and even for the fact to bring in foreign talent to give them citizenship rights, how can the policy really be so open?? the fact I'm aware of is that it takes i certain number of years to even convert from a PR status to a CITIZEN for us normal people. and yes, the government has the right to do do as to allow FTs or expats to integrate to society, in simple term FEEL like a Singaporean themselves. but this players are getting this right too easily, and i bet they would not VALUE it!! like some of you said, they are as likely to run off to another country if it offers them more money! i feel that FT policy is OK. but get the players here at a early age and GROOM them like many of you said. SO THEY BE LABELED “MADE IN SINGAPORE” AND NOT simply “MADE IN CHINA but ASSEMBLED IN SINGAPORE” or even “MADE IN CHINA, IMPORTED BY SINGAPORE”. and nevertheless, i really don’t see why Singapore is so dying for medals in the Olympics. for all i know is that MEDALS ARE NOT BRINGING DOWN FUEL PRICE OR THE COST OF LIVING here!!! fine if you are happy the way your life is, at least care to look at the aunties or uncles who collect cans from litter bins everyday to make ends meet. can’t all the money spent on these CHINA-PLAYERS be channeled to help them????? have a heart, make a change.
Monday, August 18, 2008
8:29 PM
finally exams are over! had my last paper, engineering mechanics, today. i did not get to sleep last night as i spent my time burning mid-night oil. and the worse thing is that my paper was not that fantastic either. although i did manage to do some of the questions. what more can i say? i am already prepared to repeat at least one module. it would certainly be amazing, or rather astonishing if i manage to clear all my modules this semester. oh well, lets talk a little about today. i reached home at about 11am or 12nn i think. which is considered 'super' early! lols. why? lets just say i made some misjudgement in choosing some of my friends. but that is another story altogether. let me save it for another day. so took i quick nap after reaching home. the little piglet woke me up about 3pm, i think. dragged myself to the shower. then went to meet her at about 5pm as she wanted to try the new MARLBORO MINT i had bought from Malaysia. ha ha! she was a 'nube' at it! almost got 'maboke'(dizzy) at half-stick!! i wanted to laugh my ass off! but must give her some face ma. hahahaha! anyway, we also went to Burger King to have a very very late lunch. don't they just make the best burgers?? and the biggest too!! *drooling* wooohooo!! after seeing the pictures you guys will know what i mean...
stay away from my side of the table!
yummy! yum! yum!
after taking a HUGE biteeZ..
Sunday, August 17, 2008
4:21 PM
its been a while since my last post huh? what to do? i have been too busy preparing for my exams that i never got any time to blog. i spent 48hrs straight, locked up in my room, preparing for my maths exam(with no sleep at all!). yet i barely managed to do the paper! imagine how i feel? dam! my eltech paper was another mess? i wanted to study for it, but gave up half-way. too many chapters to cover! it seemed simply impossible! sigh.. i am going to flunk my eltech for sure! forget that. woke up 12++ this morning and went for breakfast (at a time when Singaporeans usually eat lunch). drank a cup of tea and smoked a few sticks. guess my mind was still asleep from last night's trip to Malaysia. haha.. bought a weird brand of Marlboro. lols. 'Marlboro Fresh Mint'. Not bad at all. but the trip was not really as fun as i expected. all my friends were still working and i left early too, as i wanted to have a good rest before i started my revisions. dam! it is already 4.30pm now and i haven started studying for my engmech paper tomorrow. really hope i have sufficient time. alright then, i better be going now. loads to cover!! chao.. :)
nothing goes better with a cup of tea in the morning.. a pack of cigarette!
introducing.. Marlboro Fresh Mint!!!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
10:07 AM
dam! dam! dam! today is already Tuesday, i have only 3 more days to my exam!! ok, finally i am starting to feel the pain up my butt! haha! fine, enough of jokes. back to the topic. yea, i have been spending the last few hours mugging for my maths. i woke up 5+ this morning i think, and have been studying since. dam these 'complex numbers'! they are making my spin!! wooooHooooo.. come to think of it, i only have 3 examinable modules. maths, engineering mechanics and electrical technology. and yet i have SOOO much to study!! i can literally feel the cold of sweats appearing on my forehead now. i really hope i can cover all the topics in this short span of time. by hook or by crook, i have to pass all my modules. why you say? well, let's just say someone promised me a new bike if i did. :) oh well, and it's for my own good too. hmm.. i better go now, still got loads more to study! ta-ta..
Saturday, August 9, 2008
4:41 AM
wooohooo! today was simply the greatest!! i got to go swimming with my piglet. haha! (although i can't swim). baby was afraid i would oversleep again so she woke me up pretty early today. but lazy me, i fell asleep again. lucky me, i managed to wake up on time. took a quick shower and left for jurong east swimming complex. it has been ages since i last went swimming. but it turned out to be a really relaxing and soothing experience, and i really needed it. but the bad part of it was waiting for all of baby's friends to arrive. otherwise, it was dam fun! me and baby also spent alot of time in the water. (hugging and kissing) =p but.. good times are always short-lived. i had to rush back to school, to submit the written report for my c++ programing project. and something 'fucked up' happened on my way to school. dam! lols. k, here is the details of the incident.. i was at the filter lane next to bukit timah market waiting to turn right to beauty world and the traffic was killing me. so much on-coming vehicle that i simple couldn't turn out of the filter lane. and the stupid car behind me kept honking. i kept my cool at first. but soon lost my composure and turned back to glare at him. that is when he made some angry gestures. which really pissed me off big time! i turned back, switched off the engine and got down from my bike and approached his car. i saw a 'stuPIG' ang moh sitting inside. i started to shouted at him and he responded, still in this car.(i don't think he could hear me as i couldn't hear him either) but the gestures told everything. at a point i gestured to lower his window and i could see the fear in his eyes. that fat, white pig got really scared when i asked his to bring his window down. and i was prepared to give his a heavy punch on his fat face! he really made my blood boil man! did he think i was that free?! come on, i also had to rush back to school to submit my project! come to think of it, he deserved it! stupid, fat pig!! anyways, before i end today, here are some pictures i took with my princess...
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
1:53 AM
today was dam boring too! baby woke me up at about 9 or 10 i think, to tell me she wanted to meet me. didn't even go to school today. was only supose to have math lecture from 3-4pm. wat a waste of time! half the time i don't even know what the lecturer talking about. shit! 2 more weeks to exams! starting to feel the pinch now. better start my revisions early this time. oh yea, i still have pratical test for computer programming this coming wednesday. must study! must study! haha. oh well, had alot of time on my hands today. so i designed a blogskin for my baby. and also wrote a poem. want to have a look? here goes nothing.. =)
Unloved
if you shall hit a tree, it shall still serve you;
there i planted a seed of love, you never cared;
the flowers all cried to death, you never looked.
my friend, my flowers were without thorn.
like bees collect honey in their hives,
i collected love for you in this heart;
yet you refused the pieces of my heart.
my friend, my honey was pure.
gave you my thought of love;
yet my tune was without sorrow.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
11:29 PM
is it just me? or does Sundays always suck big time? lols. either ways, today was a really really boring day! i woke at 5 i think, in the afternoon. haha! gotcha! yea, i had gone to Malaysia the night before came back around 6+ in the morning. come to think of it, visiting Malaysia is a daily ordeal for me now. times like these when petrol prices are soaring rocket high and cigarettes more expensive then 'gold bars', Malaysia is the only place people like me can turn to. personally for me, i always and i mean always look forward to my trip there! not only does the food and cigarettes there taste better than in Singapore, its cheaper too! haha. i know what you guys are thinking, taste of cigarette? oh well, if you are a as heavy smoker as i am, taste does play a major role. (i'm smiling to myself now) i have been to Malaysia so many times and so often that i even made some really good friends there! you know, although my friends there don't have a luxurious and extravagant life as us Singaporeans here, its still very fun, nice and some sort of cosy. =) yeap2, next time i go there, which is real soon, i will take some pictures for you guys.
this is how often i visit Malaysia
p/s: i miss my 'winstons'
Saturday, August 2, 2008
1:19 AM
hi there. its me again. hows everything? well, for me, my life has been pretty much stagnant these few days. nothing much going on at school either. so what should i talk about today? well, there is something that i recently realised that i wanted to share. it's about blogs. usually people would relate to blogs with obscenity, hatred, love, complaints, wining, experiences and so on. but giving it a second thought, having a blog has changed me into something new, completely. it has given me new perspective to things, situations and people. i, now, see the world in different way. i have to started to give things second thoughts. and there is this craving in myself to share the 'beauty' of things with the rest of the world. for example, today i was with my baby when i caught a glimpse of the 'sun setting'. and that is exactly when the particular feeling kicked in.
who haven't seen the sun setting right? but have you guys given the sight a second thought and took a moment to absorb its beauty? i know i haven't, before. which i did today. and i took a picture of it too to share the "beauty that is pixel deep".
